Forgive me……

I’ve started ending my quiet time with the Lord’s prayer……

‘Our Father in heaven!  May your Name be kept holy.  May your Kingdom come, your will be done on earth as in heaven.  Give us the food we need today. Forgive us what we have done wrong, as we too have forgiven those who have wronged us. And do not lead us into hard testing, but keep us safe from the Evil One. For kingship, power and glory are yours forever. Amen.’

Matthew 6:9-13 (Complete Jewish Bible)

i-forgive-youI’ve made it a point to not just say the words but to actually pray the prayer in what I’m calling Sharonese. Sharonese is my way of taking this prayer that has been said for generations by millions of people  and making it my own.

I always find it far easier to ask for forgiveness than to  forgive others. It’s not that I don’t  want to forgive them or that I want to hold a grudge against someone else.  I just don’t want to be hurt again by thinking about how I was hurt in the first place.

But if I don’t actually think about who I need to forgive then I’ve fallen into the trap of just saying the words instead of praying, haven’t I?

During my prayer time the other day, the Holy Spirit revealed to me that it’s not just people who’ve done something to hurt me that need my forgiveness. There are people that I need to forgive that have failed to love me as I wanted or needed them too. And those  people who haven’t lived up to my expectations need my forgiveness also. And I needed to forgive those who seemed to ignore me in my time of need.

And, as always, the Holy Spirit is absolutely right so I did exactly what He told me to do!

So now, I’m asking you. Will you forgive me for failing to love you as you wanted or needed me to? Will you forgive me for not living up to your expectations? Will you forgive me when it seemed as if I were ignoring you in your time of need?

Will you forgive me?

 

Blame.  Guilt. Shame.

These are words and emotions meant to manipulate, control, and condemn. Blame is a cruel reminder of the past. Guilt locks the door in the prison of regret. Shame dissolves hope.
And, often, weight-gain is the concertina wire that surrounds the prisoner locked into this prison.

Conviction. Repentance. Forgiveness.

These are so much more than words. They are the work of the Holy Spirit who
gives freedom from manipulation and allows condemnation to be shaken off like the sand on our feet. The Holy Spirit transforms regrets into opportunities.

I believe that once we begin to walk in the fullness of the Holy Spirit we will discover that the prison doors, locks, and concertina wire are no longer needed and that extra weight can begin to melt away.